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They are profile, entries, tagboard and links navigations respectively (from the top). View Counts:	Sunday, February 26, 2012, 2:47 AM Martyrdom & Celibacy The moment I learn that there is such a gift, I try to enhance it and own it to the maximum. Yes, I was inspired by the tweet of Jaeson Ma. "As I am willing to live for God, I am willing to die for Him." It was such an impact to me. I want to be just like what he said. As time passes I realized that my faith and love has become simpler and simpler. The more I train my understanding and heart to be, the more compelling it is for me to be with God. And things getting less complicated. I can summarize it for you with just 10 minutes. Seriously, you can try. I only need a piece of paper. I find it more striking if I have a conversation. Thursday, February 23, 2012, 7:02 AM Staying Luow Have been staying low for 2 years. And now the chance has finally come. Thank You God. Adios. =) Monday, February 20, 2012, 4:12 AM 2 I look back again. I reread the whole thing. I look through every sentences and every reply I've made. 2 years from there, and now, not a single clue of what happened back then, I could think of a few reasons, but not until I get the real words from you, I would not assume anything, that, is my kind of trust. Every question concerning you and me was hit back with the "I dunno leh" Or, "Its my fault." Or, a series of explanation, "He has reason, and I believe in him." with friends asking it over and over again, they care, I know, they wanna take side, and I said no. Because back then I was courageous to take you into an oath. People trusted me, and I trusted you till today. Worth it, never did I tried to fall back, all for the Love of God. Heartbroken once? Yes, trice the times but I managed through. Why all these shits? I dunno. What do you think? Ha, Im so tired now I can see rainbows on my screen. One thing remains deep in my heart.life.mind.soul. Was that I really did loved you. How I hated God for you, and understood loving Him. Gosh, worth it =) , 2:58 AM Focus of my life I just dunno how can people be like that, at least not for me to understand. Gosh, yes, I truly believe in them and so shall I take my words, not to barge into their life. I totally believed in what Paul said, "pray behind your door." will truly be the intercessions of life. and I will continue my Prayer's Keep for those whom I loved so much. God, I hope you really see my desire. Friday, February 17, 2012, 4:36 AM 年其实当初我真的有祷告，为你，为你的幸福。我是不是很多事？其实，做么不能耐心地等？我们看到的，真的是为了你的幸福。因为我们看你为朋友，知心。所以我们才要这么保护你。真的希望你能够明白。这里有一个好消息，我们所求的，从来不缺乏。年，我不知道多少，但是有一年，会在一起。 Thursday, February 16, 2012, 6:22 PM 5点57分刚刚爸爸打来，问我电话单的问题，我不知道为什么Maxis 会charge我那么多钱！上个月我真的没有用很多电话，我只是sms给全部人新年快乐，也没有打长途电话，这只是证明Maxis有些package真的是骗钱的！他似乎真的很担心我，他说他不长命，看我的日子剩不多。我听到了都心酸，我现在的目标不就是要回到你身边嘛.......我这个孩子没有女朋友，就是因为我爱我爸爸妈妈，很简单的道理，我真的有在想。我也很累，请多给我一点时间。我真的不是一个不孝的孩子，只是勤劳了许久是会累的，以前我也很少叛逆，哪里有做过什么坏事，我错，我真的会勇于承认，我以前知道你辛苦，所以才没有去补习，也不是省了许多钱，我今年过年，一分钱也没花在衣服上，都是妈妈买给我，我真的没有想过？？？算了，你怎样看来还是很生气我为什么不会好好读书。而我正是不会好好读书的时期，就不能忍一忍？ , 6:50 AM Fate Theres so many if in my head now, most of it want things to be perfect, and that only mean I want to be happy. It doesnt make sense right? Because if what I am is selflessness, I wouldnt want to focus on being happy. Man, this is hard. But 1 thing I realized today was: Having this gift is super cool, having song flashing in my brain. Its awesome =.= Then 1 last thing, I still love my best friend whom I called best friend. Have to restart my pushup TODAY!!!! RAWR!! Wednesday, February 15, 2012, 2:50 AM Theres Many Things I missed out......... Q : "Why do you want to go back Segamat?" A : Because I love both my parents, I want to stay with them. Q : "Well, what if God has a plan for you else where?" A : I believe God is God, He has trillions of plans for me EVERYWHERE. Q : "What's your plan when you go back to Segamat for good." A : I plan to build the church back there, I want my parents to accept Christ. A : Yes, I totally believed in the providence of God, I do not have backup plan, I have none, I just want to go back, that is my heart. Selflessness takes you to another level, Im not rich, like what people said, Im willing to sacrifice my food money for you. Im not smart, but Im willing to try and cooperate with you. I have homeworks too, yet I serve 3 ministries. My father wasnt who you think he is, he does gives me money, but nevertheless, he is far from understanding his children, well, I did blame him in my heart for a brief moments. Time passed, and I learn how to love him without looking at what he did for me, bad or good, I tried very very very hard to understand his love for me. And still trying. Yes, selflessness. So, please, Im trying hard to be selfless not for myself, For God and His people. Give me some time, I aint gonna leave God.( I might, one day, I dunno.) Well, I gotta be honest. =) God knows. Ciao~ , 2:31 AM Emotionless. ( Currently listening to Christina Perri- A Thousand Years ) Sometimes I just cant sleep at all, rolling on the bed ~ roll & roll ~ Theres just so much to think about. I thought of starting my own business in hometown. I even came up with the Trademark, setback, who do I patner with, how to I make money from it, is it already not in the business industry, is it really gonna work for the coming 10 years? I hit myself with lots of question and setback that would come, that simply because all the people around me always told me to think harder. Im just so far away from home, far away from what they expected me to be, far from what I expected myself to be. I fail so much, but am I not trying? Im tired of serving all my weekends for God, yes honestly I am tired. That is why the coming year, Im gonna do what I want to do ------ The worship ministry. Since I already gave the opportunity for every else to step up, and yet no one wants, fine, you dont want? I want. Im growing tired of pushing myself so hard to do the things, I do not like to do. But wait, who doesnt anyway? Well, its not like I am very into worship stuff also. Anyway, my upcoming song is entitled Unlimited Love. I need a producer afterall ~.~ Segamat, just you wait, I'll be coming home ! Thursday, February 2, 2012, 5:44 AM How.Why.I.Dunno.I.Want.Rest Its not true, its not intentional that I simply talk about things simply. Its not true that I talk behind people's back. Its not true that I have a crush on someone. Its not true that I want a girlfriend or Im GAY. Its not true that Im strong enough to face your discrimination. Its not true that I dont wanna talk about it. Its not true that I didnt care, the more I show that I doesnt care, THE MORE I CARE I spent 50% of my time for my family and 50% of my time for my friends. Fair enough right? Though most of time I would shut myself in my room and play games. I do not like to entertain people which I do few years back, I want to talk, but its just aint right. Forgive me for being quiet God. Seriously, I need more rest, like forever !!!!! I have assignments and things to do in college, I just hope that Im not in this routine ofgoing college. Its tiring, Im 21, i should be out there working ! Im not young anymore, I have to take on the responsibility of taking care of my family wealthfare. AND IM NOT. Gosh, a failure. And I dreamt alot of nonsene. ARGH, Goodnight ~		WhoAmi? Im Cann. Am a Chinese Hokian ren, dont speak fluent hokien though, but I can speak Hakka =D I love to hang out, Yumcha (it means drinking) =) I like to meet people too, bwaahahahaha =) What else ? Hmmmmmmm, looking for an entry to music industry. Im not good, but I just wanna share some of my thoughts on music. My Facebook Wordpress This blog serves as my own diary too. =D		WhomIOftenVisits Cristin Shurong kereD Rynn MengYao WernSheng 依雯 Shuyi LiJun 志伟 WeiJack InThePast 2010 February March April May June July August September October November December 2011 January February takeabow An accidentality production Inspiration from DancingSheep & BONBON:D		Leave Me Some Noise