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Tuesday, September 28, 2010, 11:14 AM
Something
Because we believe. Then it's not uncertain anymore. It's not assured, because we didn't believe. Let's try and use our heart. Not of our mind or anything. Something we don't have actually. To believe. I can show you. =) Monday, September 27, 2010, 12:56 AM
Ever
Sunday, September 26, 2010, 12:52 AM
Again
And unexpectedly, someone just gave me the answer from God. I did not tell anyone about this. Because i want the first person to know it, is the very important person =D. Somehow, Im relieved, because God answered. Of course, at the same time, Im so worried that I wouldnt want to do anything now. Because I had made a covenant with God, just like the " i dun want to paktoh de" I will not give up on this one. Its never ! Wednesday, September 15, 2010, 6:29 AM
Thought of you
As if a mother was waiting for her son. how long has it been? Ever since 27th July. It was on the night of Vision Casting. God speak to me for real. From that day onward. You're my first priority. my timetable is planned according to yours. I was happy that God allow me to. I'll never forget that night, when God shot me. I dunno, am I being considerate for you? I really wanted to. Im trying. I don't want you to be in the world where no one understands you. I said we would breakthrough this. I still remember every promises I have in you. Im will continue. Waiting. =) Sunday, September 12, 2010, 1:16 AM
对不起=D
除了说对不起,我真的不知道还可以做什么。 我只会告诉我自己, 我们的感情没有那么糟, 真的很多东西都不再重要了。 你明白我很多, 我明白你很多, 就是太在乎了, 有时真的会误会。 放心好了,Baba一定看着你,保护着你。 要打开你的眼睛看。 我支持你! Thursday, September 9, 2010, 5:38 AM
=D
At least from my eye. Ha..... I still remembered it clearly. That smile, when you really did it. I can feel it. Maybe its just my mirage =) Well, I don't care. At least, I will not forget. Being alone isn't easy. All by myself for a week. Rawr...... Hate it when you did that. Maybe you're getting tired of me. Just maybe =.=, my guess. Maybe you just did it for no reason. (It's a reason afterall =S) Urgh. ( So many i could think of ) In the end, I'm still looking for an answer. For you. Is it courage? Courage to have faith. Courage to believe in Him. Courage to be passionate. Conviction and passion. I see these in you. Courage. How does that sounds to you? There just tons of things I would like to say. Why ? Why treat yourself so bad ? Putting yourself at risk for others. I understand it's love. But, isn't there a better way ? It pains me. Often, I just wanna hug you and do nothing. Its warm =) Why piss off ? You'll hurt yourself. Slap me at least. Hate it when you hid those grudge. ( my guess @.@ ) Remember when I said, its ok for you to leave all of these, or leave me aside ? Because sometimes I just had this thought of maybe being with me is just too hard. Too much of a burden to you. It's really ok if you wanna leave. I will definitely try to persuade you to stay =) if that happens. Hehe. Remember the argue over music and lyrics ? I just had so much time to think this over. Its true what you said. But, the most important thing, was not these two at all. Its our heart that are able to understand it. Its our heart that is able to sense it. I do this for the sake of a friend, who is very important to me=) Wednesday, September 8, 2010, 3:35 AM
Borders
One of my favorite anime ( that has many great opening song lol) During episode 21. It was the fight between Crona and Maka. Maka was the good one , Crona is the Demon Blade ( obviously the bad one ) It struck me. In order to beat Crona ( well this isn't what Maka intended anyway ) Maka has to match her soul wavelength with Crona, meaning, to understand her. To do that, Maka has to accept the black blood ( which Crona has ) Once you accepted black blood, you'll turn insane or mad just like Crona. And you might never come back into sanity. Knowing that, Maka still believe it will be ok. Because Soul ( her weapon ) is with her. Maka did that and get into Crona's world ( inside Crona ) It was a world of sand dune. Crona was drawing border, a circle around her. That she doesn't want anyone to come into this border. Crona sit down and talk to her shadow. ( her shadow was talking to her ) Because she was always alone. The shadow keep asking her question. But she pass all the question, all 42 questions. Her shadow gave up on asking her question. And Crona cried, that she even forsake herself. Maka step into the border and show Crona. Why isolate yourself. And Maka erase that border. Ok, back to the real battle. The black blood inside Crona is rejecting her because Crona changed. Crona turn sane. ( Crona is struggling painfully and needle keep bursting out of her body) Maka, go and hug her. and said this, " You were this because no know taught you how." "Let's be friend." and calmed her. Ok, I give up on explaining, you just had to watch the anime yourself. Great anime, great thoughts were put in by the creator. The style and everything, humor, and friendship and family. One of the best indeed. I realized, in the end, it was borders that kept us aside. I don't want such thing to exist. I am scared. Not being alone. But away from you. We drew borders in such a vast world. We are stupid. So much for the possibility. Yet trying was all talk. Prove the values we have. Do something to prove to yourself. That you have such power. If you dont use it, you will never know you had it. When you want to be alone, try holding someone else hand. Remember that warmth, if thats not enough, hug them. Feel it, how it is like to be two. It's better =) , 3:32 AM
Paper Moon =)
I’m Falling Down Into My Shadow I’m Falling Down Into My Shadow See you in your dreams Yeah Baby See you in your dreams. Yeah Baby, Fairy Blue kimi no tame ni hoshi wo kudaki Fairy Blue, for you, I shatter the stars amai shinku no JAMU mo The sweet Crimson Jam madowasarenai de Don’t be confused, Fairy Blue kimi ga kureta ikiru akashi kizuna to iu eien Fairy Blue you gave me proof to live, a bond called eternity. dare mo shinjirarenakute hikutsu ni naru toki mo aru I didn’t want to believe in anyone, there was a time I was mean, Fairy Blue kimi no tame ni hoshi wo kudaki kazaritsuketa mejirushi Fairy Blue, for you, I shatter the stars and adorn the signs. Fairy Blue kimi ga kureta ikiru akashi kizuna to iu shinrai Fairy Blue you gave me proof to live, a bond called confidence. kimi ha hitori janai You aren’t alone, Sunday, September 5, 2010, 4:19 AM
自然
是自然。 可是也可以说习惯了就成了自己的自然。 这样好吗? 我不知道叻..... 也许真的不是那么重要, 是想太多的关系。 是我不会分重要跟不重要。 所以全部看起来都重要。 要继续思考才行=) 我会找到答案的。 我最在乎的还是 我能够给你多少。 爸爸妈妈为了给我更多所以很努力。 我也要一样这样子=D Saturday, September 4, 2010, 3:35 AM
Perfect
It's flawless. How do I talk about perfect? Yeap, I just did. =D Everyone is trying to make everything perfect for them. In a sense, well, for family, friends,work, future, spouse ? and etc. We don't realize this at all. That's very dangerous, when we doesn't know what we're doing. Because thats blind. And after thinking about this. I kept asking myself. "Am I trying to make my family perfect? " "Am I trying to make perfect friends? " So many question. I don't even believe in all of this. Because when it's love that we followed, why would we even talk about perfect. why not then ? Because there's no point. We can't even define it for ourselves. There's too many definition for perfect. Too many to too much. So, even as I speak of this now. It would mean nothing. Ok, whatever then..... So, what answer I gave myself was: "Nope, Im not making my family perfect when it's already is. I cherish with what I have. It's given to me. It's MY family after all. Something that I HAVE." "Nye, I have no such intention. Why would I want perfect friends? Friends are to be cared of. Friends are to be loved. They are friends, not more nor less." "And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good." Genesis 1:31 I like this verse alot. With this, I always think positively. =D Friday, September 3, 2010, 2:48 AM
Firefly
It was beautiful =D Lucky ~ Thursday, September 2, 2010, 4:27 AM
好突然
我在想 是不是有一片泪海 我看不到的 而又是不是为了我 这片泪海 你喝了下去 所以我才不曾看见 你背的 我总是看不见 因为重量是拿来背的 我看,我不明白 是你的倔强 还是我的信心 或是他人的期望 不 全部都是 因为 没有你的倔强 我的信心又是什么了 没有他人的期望 我们的信心与倔强哪里来 几时 我背的东西 突然你来背了 而你的我也背起来了 这样好轻哦 又几时 你的倔强 成了我所相信的相信 而不再有不相信的相信 好突然 Wednesday, September 1, 2010, 5:31 AM
Insomnia
Where's my exorcist? Brain dancing eye fainting. And heart is teasing. My thoughts are feasting on time. Couldn't wouldn't shouldn't have. Why tree is there to wait death? And I am stabbing my self. Fool. But But But. I am going to sleep now =). 我语无伦次。 |
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